I took a short nap at 10PM and woke up to my clock telling me it’s almost 6AM. Then I was like wow really? Cuz it felt like only a while, then I found out that it’s actually some time past midnight and that my clock probably stopped around 6PM when I was out in town earlier.
It’s been a while since I’ve written something like this. Or at the very least, it feels like it’s been a while. Time is the same for everybody, and yet its duration varies depending on how an individual is feeling.
As for me, I have been feeling out of it.
It’s something I can’t quite wrap my head around. The feeling of moving forward yet being squished by the pressure at the very same time. It’s exciting and unnerving. It’s everything in a moment. All of a sudden, you have so much to lose. In that split second, you still feel hints of how you have nothing left to lose and nothing left to prove.
I was at work the other day and a lady suddenly rushed in and called for our attention. An old, elderly man had just collapsed right outside the store and he had nobody with him. He was just out and about. All alone, in the city, in the middle of a bustling shopping mall with nobody accompanying him. He had trouble talking and standing up after and it took them a really long time to get him onto the paramedics’ wheelchair because of the shock he was in.
That incident alone spun me into deep thought for the rest of that day itself.
Which brings us to the next question: why move on? Why carry on?
I don’t have the answer. Like time, it varies for everybody. I don’t think I need a reason right now because there are too many. I guess sometimes life is just a matter of doing it. Just doing life. No cuts, no buts, no coconuts.
May this journey continue to be as rewarding and fulfilling for me to have pulled through so far. It’s going to be an interesting year. The winds are once again blowing in different directions, but I’m no longer afraid of letting it take me.
I hope to remember how happy I am now. Right now, I am very happy.
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